I needed to create this blog because I have these overwhelming feelings about someone and I have no one to talk to about them. There are many reasons why 1. I am still in love with him 2. I shouldn't be in love with him. 3. I can't tell anybody 4. He will never know my feelings and 5. He will never speak to me again.

When I fell in love with him, I had never felt more alive! I was so excited to wake up in the morning. I was even excited to go to work. Every weekend was an adventure for me. I had these feeling before we were officially together as a couple.

I will, day to day, try to recreate the events that lead me to where I am today. I swear I dream about him all the time. I dream I am waiting for his call or I am waiting to meet him. I need to get this out of my system. I have a boyfriend ... for 2 years I have had a boyfriend. I haven't been with this man in 3 years! I am not looking for help, I just need to get this out. I know he will never come back to me .... but I can dream that he will!